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Sunday, February 19th, 2012

I'm not a professional writer...I'm not a professional anything....well I may be considered a professional Adam fan....too bad that's not a real job that comes with benefits and a paycheck. Oh the possibilities :) But the thing is I would love to be a professional writer. I love to write and I think I'm pretty good at it. I write part-time for an online site called The Content Authority and it's great. I make a little bit of extra money and get to write about a wide variety of topics ranging from the best brand of adult diapers to finding real estate in Zephyr Hills, Florida. Seriously. It's good practice but the instructions are pretty strict and once I'm paid for the content it is published in places I never get to see and I'm not credited as the author. When I write from a creative place it seems I can only write in the mornings when I have ample time and lately I haven't been inspired OR had that ample time at the same time. Ha. That sounds like an excuse but it's really true.

SO......I'm going to try to just write in my blog and try to get the creative juices flowing or something like that. If you read it great, please leave some comments. If you don't read it that's OK too.

Morning

I've been sick for the past week. I was seriously ill on Thursday and Friday and had to muster up a tremendous amount of 'get up and go' to make myself go to work.....miserable and sleep deprived but I survived the workweek and I'm taking it super easy this weekend so that I can be well for next week. I've definitely noticed that it's a lot harder to shake off these minor illnesses and keep up with life's daily responsibilities when you get older. Oye!

Last night I slept pretty good. I went to sleep with my bedroom TV on VH1. Early morning I found myself gently awakened by a familiar tune....it was Adam singing 'Better Than I Know Myself'. For some reason I looked at my phone...hmmm nope it wasn't coming from my phone. Then I rolled over and looked at the TV. His video was playing on VH1. Smile :) Snuggle into my covers and fall back to sleep.

Sauli's Travel Woes

Poor Sauli! What a horrible thing to happen. I can't even imagine. I've only flown cross-country a couple of times (including connecting flights in horrible airports) and it's quite exhausting and uncomfortable even when things go smoothly....middle seat anyone?

I'm glad that Sauli is being independent and traveling on his own in the US. I think that's important for him and for their relationship. I get lambasted by some Glamberts every time I mention this wild idea but I will continue to stand by my opinion. In my wildest romantic dreams I cannot fathom a long-lasting relationship out of Sauli being a 'kept man' with no personal passions or endeavors. I think that storyline works great in romantic novels but not so much in real-life relationships. Adam said they are working to find a balance and trying to give each other space and that's a good thing. I feel very strongly that Sauli himself is probably adamant about the fact that he do his own thing sometimes and not tag along all the while when Adam is traveling for work. As we've seen he can fly in and be with Adam when time permits. And sometimes he stays home and does his own things. Ultimately it will be Sauli who has to make the most compromise and sacrifice and I have the utmost respect for him for that. I'm excited to see how they manage their relationship as Adam's chapter 2 progresses. Personally I hope he can come along on tour from time to time just for the full experience and I hope he isn't intimidated by the Glamberts LOL. Also so he can keep Adam feeling happy and ~satisfied so he doesn't get lonely or stressed out. But so is the life of a rockstar....it is tour buses and dressing rooms and lonely nights in hotel rooms. This is Adam...this is what he was meant to do and it's a fire inside him and whether or not Sauli is physically with him they always have their emotional connection to sustain them.

Anyway...sorry to get off on that tangent :) Back to Sauli's travel nightmare....it's nice that he was put up in that lovely hotel for the night and I'm sure the upgrade to first class was nice but that's not apt compensation for what he was put through. I saw a website someone posted on Twitter that explains the way passengers are to be compensated and it's very specific in dollars and cents as in he is due to be financially compensated for the value of his ticket times three! I hope he pursues this. I know I would.

I'm glad he finally made it home to LA and Mr. Lambert was quite upset by the incident but now that Adam is home I'm sure they are "laughing bout it". I find it kind of funny that the first time Sauli spends the night in the US somewhere other than LA, NY or Vegas without Adam is in freaking Minnesota. It's also kind of ironic....OOFTA!!

I love Sauli's writing. He's a great story-teller and I love the way his writing is often laced with ire and sarcasm. Although he's been living in the US continuously since July he did live the rest of his life in Finland and the US is apparently quite different. I don't expect the stories of wonderment, awe and 'what the fuck?' to end anytime soon.

Adam's Promo

Wow! Adam's promo trip back East was a whirlwind. So many appearances and performances. So many Glamberts got to meet Adam. Congrats to you all! Now that Adam is back home and the album delay is 'official' I wonder what's next? It seems risky to lose his momentum. I guess we will find out. I'm hoping for a new single to drop soon. I guess for now he needs a few days to rest up and the Glamberts need a few days to catch up :)

Good Eats

Yesterday I made a double batch of this great semi-homemade soup recipe that I made up. Now I have a whole crock full of it for later today. Yummy.




Until next time....have a great Sunday and feel free to leave me a comment below. While I appreciate that everyone has an opinion and you are certainly within your rights to disagree with mine please don't leave rude comments on my blog.

Thank You.

PS: I'm in the process of getting the soup recipe published on Yahoo and I will tweet the link when it is available.

 

Superman

This is a work of fiction inspired by a 'Twitter after dark' conversation, a scene from a movie and my own insane imagination. No offense is intended to Adam or his relationship. I wish them nothing but much love and sexy times :)

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Sauli was sitting outside on the deck enjoying his second cup of coffee and contemplating his next blog post when Adam popped his head out the door.

"I'm leaving doll. See you tonight."

"OK, can I have a.....?"

Adam blew Sauli a quick kiss and was gone.

Adam had been acting strange the past couple of days and Sauli was worried. He wanted to believe it was just the stress of the upcoming album release that was occupying so much of Adam's thoughts recently but in his heart of hearts he knew there was something else going on. Something wasn't right between them but he couldn't figure out what it was. When they had made love the night before Adam had asked Sauli twice, "Are you mine?".

"Of course I'm yours, are you crazy?" Sauli muttered to himself as he rose from his chair. He went into the bedroom to get his phone and his laptop to begin the days work. His feet froze to the floor when he saw a folded sheet of paper placed underneath his phone. Sauli's hand shook as he slowly unfolded the paper. Three twenty-dollar bills fell onto the dresser revealing a note in Adam's finest handwriting:

Sauli, my dear, I would like for you to meet me tonight to discuss an important matter. Please arrive at 7pm and do not be late. Just tell the cabby to take you to the Cecil Hotel and tell the desk clerk you are there to see Adam. They will give you further instructions.  I've enclosed your cab fare. See you then. Love, me.

Sauli tried to focus on his work but he was very preoccupied by the mysterious note and pending meeting with Adam. Finally he gave up on work and took a nice long shower. He took extra care getting ready. Sauli decided Adam was either going to propose to him or break up with him, either way he wanted to look his best.  He put on his best jeans, the only pair he owned that didn't have any holes in them and a plain, white tee. Black boots, gloves and his leather jacket completed the ensemble. He called for his cab at 5pm because he knew it could easily take 2 hours to get there and he didn't want to be late.

Sauli's cab arrived at 5:45. When he asked the cab driver to take him to the Cecil Hotel he looked Sauli square in the eyes via the rear-view mirror and said, "Why do you want to go there dude?"

"Please take me to the Cecil Hotel." Sauli stated emphatically as he slid on his sunglasses.

His mind raced with fear of being in an accident as the cabby darted through the traffic, violently starting, stopping and changing lanes all while cursing up a storm and honking his horn incessantly. Sauli welcomed the distraction as it got his mind off of worrying about what Adam was going to say to him.

Finally, after 50 minutes of watching his life flash before his eyes Sauli felt the cab screech to a stop, pitching him forward and then backwards in his seat.

"Here you are dude. The fabulous Cecil Hotel." The cabbies voice dripped with sarcasm.

Sauli handed him the 60 dollars and told the guy to keep the change.

"Thank you very much", Sauli said as he exited the vehicle. The cab screeched off into the traffic.

The Cecil Hotel was a massive building in a not so great part of downtown LA. It stretched some 20 stories into the sky and looked like something straight out of a horror movie. The foot traffic on the street was a mixture of suited people walking briskly with solemn faces, a few tourists wearing I heart LA t-shirts and many vagrant looking folk. Random bits of trash and papers blew up and down the street.

Sauli pulled his phone out of his pocket to check the time.  6:35 exactly.  He was 20 minutes early.  He so wanted to call Adam, just to hear his voice but he felt very strongly that his "see you tonight" was meant to convey that he did not want any communication with Sauli until their meeting.

The entrance to the hotel was flanked with a bank of massive glass doors detailed in brass. Sauli took a deep breath, hauled one of the heavy doors open and stepped inside the hotel lobby.  It was massive with a ceiling that looked like it was 60 feet high. In the center hung a giant chandelier. Sauli turned slowly in a circle surveying his surroundings and trying to locate the desk clerk. He spotted a short man standing behind a counter staring at him suspiciously. Sauli smiled at him and began to approach the desk.

He cleared his throat feeling nervous as he always did when he had to speak English to someone other than Adam.

"I'm here to see Adam", He stated assuredly.

The man's face showed no expression, he turned his back to Sauli facing a large wall of keys hanging on hooks. He took a key from one of the hooks and handed it to Sauli.

"Room 3D, 3rd floor, take the elevator"."

"Is he here yet?"

"No, not yet. Just go up there and wait."

"OK...thank you".

Sauli walked back through the massive hotel lobby and further into it's belly in search of the elevators. When he found them he was surprised to find one open and waiting for him. Sauli was slightly startled to find a man at the elevator controls.

"Which floor sir?"

"Ummm...3rd floor, room 3D."

The elevator operator closed the doors which looked like big, black iron gates and latched them shut.  He pulled a lever which caused the elevator to lurch and begin a slow ascent. The machine shook and jolted and made terrible screeching sounds. Sauli became terrified that the cables would break at any moment and send them plumeting to the ground. He silently thanked the universe that he was only going as high as the 3rd floor.

When they arrived the operator loudly announced "THIRD FLOOR" and lowered the lever locking the machine in place.  He opened the gates for Sauli to get off.  He was sure glad to get off of that death trap of an elevator and made a mental note to take the stairs when he left.

"Have a good day sir", the elevator man said as he closed the gates. The elevator screeched as it slowly disappeared from sight.

Sauli began checking the doors trying to find his room. He located room 3D at the end of the hallway right next to a door that said 'EXIT'. "Stairs", Sauli thought to himself. "Yay". "No more hazardous elevators for this walking weirdo", he said out loud to himself.

Sauli put the key into the lock and let himself into the hotel room closing the door behind him. The room was dark as the sun was just starting to set. A red light flashed through the lone window from the neon sign of the hotel next door. Sauli looked around the small, dank room. "Well this sure isn't the Standard", he chuckled to himself. During his brief but whirlwind romance with Adam they had already traveled so much that Sauli had become a connoisseur of hotels.

The room grew ever darker as Sauli groped his way around, searching for a lightswitch.  Once illuminated the room revealed to him it's furnishings: a dresser, bedside table, one chair and a bed dressed with a tacky red satin spread. On the bed lay a note. With much intrepidation Sauli opened the note and immediately recognized the handwriting.

My dearest Sauli, I hope that you have arrived safely. I would like to play a game. In the top dresser drawer you will find a silk scarf. Please remove your jacket and shirt and place them on the chair. Tie the scarf around your head, blindfolding yourself. MAKE SURE that you cannot see. Turn off the light and sit at the foot of the bed. Wait for me and I will come to you soon. Love, me.

Sauli felt momentarily out of body, like this was a dream or some kind of weird vision. He looked out the window watching the red light flash on and off. He did as he was instructed and removed his jacket and shirt and placed them neatly on the chair. He slowly opened the dresser drawer and his breath caught in his throat when he saw the black silk scarf. He held the scarf to his face and breathed it in, hoping it would smell of Adam. It did. This instantly set him at ease. He knew Adam would never hurt him. He trusted Adam completely.

Sauli checked his phone one last time before placing it in on the dresser. 6:50. Ten minutes left. He went into the bathroom to try to figure out how to blindfold himself with the scarf. The lightswitch made a loud click and flooded the room with harsh, flourescent light. Sauli tried several ways to see how to blindfold himself before he realized that he wouldn't be able to see. He folded the scarf neatly to a size that would properly cover his eyes and placed it across them. He tied the scarf in a tight knot behind his head and stood there looking up and down, moving his head in all directions to see if he could see anything. He could see nothing but black silk. "If this will make Adam happy, I will do", he whispered as he groped the bathroom wall, finding the lightswitch and clicking it off. Using his hands as eyes he found the lamp and switched it off then felt his way to the foot of the bed. He slowly seated himself in the center. Sauli could no longer see the flashing red light.

He sat for several minutes in the dark silence wondering what time it was. Suddenly the phone in the hotel room rang one time and startled Sauli so much that he jumped. Then he heard a key in the door. The door creaked as it slowly opened, Sauli felt the presence of someone in the room and got the slightest whiff of a familiar scent. Adam. The door creaked shut and Sauli heard the distinct sound of a door chain being put into place.

"Adam?"

Sauli felt a hand on the back of his head, fondling the knot in the scarf and pulling on it slightly.

"Adam is that you?"

Sauli reached out, trying to touch him but his hands were swatted away.

"Adam honey...."

"Shhhhhh...."

Hands spread his knees apart and he felt the presence of someone kneeling in front of him between his legs. A finger grazed Sauli's lips. He opened his mouth and the finger slipped inside. Another hand began to massage his cock through his jeans. Sauli was becoming aroused. He sucked hungrily on the finger in his mouth and swirled his tongue around it moaning lightly.

Suddenly the finger was extracted and strong hands gripped his arms. Lips were on his lips and a tongue was thrust into his mouth. Something felt different, this didn't feel right. It didn't feel like Adam. As Sauli began to squirm and protest one hand gripped him tighter, holding him prisoner in the kiss while the other hand tugged roughly at his jeans, trying to open them. Sauli struggled and fought with his free arm to extract himself from the man's grip. He tried to expel the man's tongue from his mouth so he could speak. He felt his zipper being jerked open. Sauli could take no more of this game. He reached up with his free hand and jerked the scarf from over his eyes. With a quick jerk of his head he managed to break away from the kiss long enough to shout "NO!"

Just that quickly the man let him go and retreated into the darkness of the room. Sauli blinked his eyes trying to focus his vision. When the red light flashed he saw Adam standing in the corner of the room. He was shirtless, wearing jeans and a long, black trenchcoat. His arms at his side, fists clenched. Each time the light flashed he saw Adam's stone-like face, felt his anger, felt his glare.

Sauli was gasping for breath, dazed and confused.

"So this is what you do when I'm not around?"

Sauli had never heard Adam sound so angry. He looked at the man still kneeling on the floor in front of him.

"What? Who is this guy? What is going on here? What kind of game this is Adam?"

Sauli was becoming angry himself and felt tears stinging his eyes. He did not understand.

"What difference does it make who he is?" Adam snarled, "He's not ME!"

"It's not a game. It's a test. And this is some guy I paid to come up here and seduce you."

"THIS is how you trust me? GODAMMIT Adam!!!"

Sauli ran to the door and jerked it open. The chain snapped it back shut. He struggled to free the chain from the track and slung the door open as he ran out. He burst through the exit door and ran down the stairs as fast as he could.  As he fled through the hotel lobby towards the front doors he heard Adam calling him.

"Sauli!!! Come back!!!!"

Sauli kept running out the doors and down the street. He was crying now and didn't know where he was even going. Adam burst onto the street.

"Sauli!! Sauli!!! STOP!!! Adam shouted and ran after him.

Sauli ran for two blocks with Adam in pursuit of him shouting his name. When he looked back he saw Adam running after him. With the trench coat flowing behind him like a cape he looked like Superman. Sauli was a strong runner and fast but his short legs were no match for Adam's gazelle like stride and he was quickly gaining ground.  Closer now Sauli could hear Adam's heavy breathing, his voice softer.

"Sauli....PLEASE stop!!"

The heavy footfalls were upon him, Sauli ducked into an alleyway and ran a few feet before Adam's arms captured him from behind, stopping their motion up against a brick wall. Sauli began to shake and cry as Adam held him tightly pressed up against the wall. Both men were out of breath and panting heavily.

"Baby...." Adam gasped, his mouth pressed up against Sauli's ear, "It was a test. I'm sorry....I had to know....but you passed".

Sauli spoke through tears into the wall.

"THIS way you test me? It was CRUEL Adam! SO cruel!!" Sauli sobbed.

"I KNOW it was cruel. I'm SO sorry. Please forgive me."

Adam began kissing Sauli's neck as he spoke.

"Please forgive me baby. I'm an insecure, jealous man. I just had to know that you're mine."

Adam loosened his grip on Sauli and prayed that he wouldn't break free and run away.

Sauli turned within Adam's arms to face him.

"I love you Adam. I love you with all my heart, with every breath my body breathe, I love you down to my soul. I never hurt you baby."

"I know you do....I know."

Adam took Sauli's face into his hands and they smiled at one another, that sweet, special smile that belongs only to them.

"I love you baby."

Adam kissed Sauli and it felt SO right. His wide open mouth flooded with wetness and the sweet warmth of Adam's exploring tongue. Adam threw the trenchcoat off his shoulders and let it fall to the ground. He wrapped his arms around Sauli's waist and pulled him tighter, pressing their cocks together.

"I want you right now baby," Adam panted as he kissed Sauli's neck and chest and dropped to his knees. He jerked the still partially unzipped jeans down and sucked Sauli's erect penis into his mouth right down to the base.

"Oh God baby", Sauli gasped and wound his fingers into Adam's hair.

Adam's mouth was so warm and wet and tight, Sauli knew he would come in no time. Adam moaned as he took the cock deep into his throat, his hands gripping Sauli's ass pulling him deeper and deeper inside.

Sauli's legs began to tremble and his body tensed as he pressed Adam's head to his body and released his orgasm into his lover's throat. Adam moaned on Sauli's pulsating cock and made him come even harder.

"Ohhhhhh Godddd baby!" Sauli lifted up on his toes as he shuddered again and again into Adam's warm, wet mouth.

Adam stood up quickly and began taking down his jeans. His rock hard cock sprung free.

"Damn....fuck baby....you're so damn good!!"

Adam plunged two fingers into Sauli's mouth getting them wet. He lifted Sauli up in the air spreading his legs wide, massaging the moisture into Sauli's ass, inserting his fingers and quickly working him open. He had to stifle a loud moan as his cock slipped into Sauli's sweet spot.

Sauli held Adam's neck tightly, all but impaled on Adam's cock.

"Oh God baby your ass feels so good...it feels so good to be inside you!" Adam sputtered through gritted teeth.

Sauli used his strong leg muscles to ride up and down on Adam's cock while Adam guided his ass.

"Oh baby...baby....this best love ever!!! You and I!!!"

Adam was moaning as Sauli fucked him harder and harder, faster and faster, leaning back he watched his cock disappear into his lover over and over again. Sauli felt the first quake.

"Oh shit baby....I'm coming!!!"

Adam's body convulsed, pressing Sauli's back up against the wall. His hands dug into Sauli's hips as his orgasm exploded and shook them violently.

Adam's face was buried in Sauli's chest as he gasped for breath.

"Oh baby.......I love you."

"I love you too Adam.  No worry...OK?"

Sauli kissed Adam's hair.

"OK...no more worrying...I promise."

Adam carefully lowered Sauli to the ground and they reassembled their clothing.  Both men stood bent over for a few moments, hands on their knees, breathing heavily, trying to recover. Adam picked up the trenchcoat and slung it over one shoulder. He and Sauli walked back to the Cecil Hotel holding hands, swinging them to and fro like little children.

The desk clerk eyed them suspiciously as they strode through the lobby to the elevator. Adam and Sauli just giggled and grinned at each other.

Back in the room the strange man was gone.

"Who was that guy Adam? Did you really PAY him to come onto me like that?"

"Haha...NO. That was my friend Josh. You don't know him but he sure knows you. He's been begging me to introduce you two for weeks. He has the hots for you. It made me jealous so I thought he would be perfect for the job."

"Let's take a shower", Sauli said as he took off his jeans.

"Yes...let's", Adam said stripping off his.

"Well......", Sauli teased as he prissed nude into the tiny bathroom, "he WAS a good kisser".

"Oh really?" Adam stopped walking and perched his hands on his hips.

"Yes...he was", Sauli turned and slid his arms around Adam's waist pulling him close, "but when he kiss me I only feel kiss on my lips and my mouth....when YOU kiss me I feel kiss all the way inside my heart".

Adam squeezed Sauli so tight he thought he might break in two.

Adam and Sauli laughed and joked in the tiny shower with the low water pressure while they bathed each other with the tiny little hotel soap.

Afterwards they dried each other off with towels the size of washcloths.

"You know....I have this room all night....we could stay if you want to."

"Sure babe", Sauli said as he towel dried his hair.

"Well we need three things: some whiskey, some water and some lube."

Adam winked at Sauli as he picked up the phone to place his order.

Surprisingly, the hotel was able to accommodate and even sent up a complimentary dinner.

"How nice", Adam said after he tipped the delivery person and shut and chained the door behind him. He squeezed one eye shut as he cautiously lifted the dome off the food plate.

"Chicken fingers and fries?" Both men started laughing hysterically.

Adam and Sauli propped up on pillows, nibbling on their dinner and sipping whiskey together. Adam was acting like his old self again. Sauli was so glad that the weird feeling between them was gone. Now he understood what it was all about. Now it was sure, no more doubt. It WAS a tough test but one he would gladly go through to prove his love to Adam.

They made love until the sun came up and with all the doubts and insecurities washed away their passion soared to new heights. Completely spent and one last passionate kiss good night, Sauli turned onto his side so that Adam could spoon him.

Adam nuzzled Sauli's neck, "Good night baby, I love you so much".

Sauli snuggled into Adam's warm, safe body, "I love you too.....my superman."

The End 

The Pleasure and The Pain

Note: This is a work of fiction inspired by a couple of tweets. It is not meant to disrespect Adam or his relationship. Wish them nothing but sweet, sexy times together :)

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Adam stood in front of the bathroom mirror preparing to shave. He took a hand towel and wiped the fog away from the glass, revealing his freshly showered reflection. Suddenly Sauli's face appeared in the mirror, shrouded in steam.

"Hey baby...whatcha doin?" Adam said, grinning at Sauli in the mirror.

Sauli slid his hands around Adam's waist and pressed his lips to Adam's warm, moist back. Adam could feel Sauli's pert erection pressing up against the back of his thighs through the towel he had wrapped around his hips.

"Oh really?" Adam wiggled his ass playfully pressing back into Sauli's belly.

Sauli's hands were firm on Adam's hips as he pulled them back towards him.

"Tonight....I want you." Sauli spoke softly into Adam's skin.

"Oh really?" Adam played coy but he knew what Sauli wanted.

Since they had been together and their relationship had grown the sex had just gotten better and better. Sauli was such a sensual, submissive lover and always surrendered himself completely to Adam with complete trust and abandon. Adam's mouth watered just thinking how Sauli had let him explore his beautiful body with his mouth. Gently at first, then more forcefully as Adam licked and lapped and sucked Sauli's delicious entrance. Always helpful, Sauli would hold his own knees up high and far apart, leaving Adam's hands free to spread his beautiful cheeks apart as he penetrated Sauli's hole with his long, hot, wet tongue. It was sheer bliss! Introducing a finger and then two and then three Adam skillfully finger fucked his boyfriend while he watched his beautiful face and listened to his coos and ahhs. When Adam could stand it no longer he would enter Sauli, slowly and carefully....inch by precious inch. Placing Sauli's feet on his shoulders Adam would lean fully over Sauli as he began to fuck him. Slowly at first, eyes locked on each other, shuddering as the slick, hot, tight feeling spread over their entire body. They were one. Quick, quick, slow....quick, quick, slow. Faster suddenly, pulling all the way out and slamming back inside over and over again...Sauli would moan and show the veins on his neck as his head jerked backwards. Sauli was the best fuck Adam had ever had in his life and he knew the feeling was mutual. Fucking his beautiful lover so hard and fast with such intense heat and passion. The sweat, the moans and screams! Adam had made Sauli come without so much as a finger on his dick and, of course, feeling Sauli's hot cum spray on his belly always made Adam come immediately and so damn hard he often thought he would pass out from the intense pleasure. But there was one thing that they had never done.......yet

Suddenly Sauli jerked the towel around Adam's hips loose and it fell to the floor. One hand encircled Adam's now fully erect cock as the other hand massaged Adam's buttcheek in a gentle, circular motion. Adam began to moan softly as Sauli stroked his cock with one hand and the other swirled curliques on his asscheek.

Their eyes met in the mirror. Sauli spoke again.

"I want you tonight." he said as he drew his hand back and smacked Adam's ass as hard as he could.

"Owwww! Damn baby!" Adam whined, feeling both surprised and annoyed.

Sauli blew Adam a kiss in the mirror and quickly left the bathroom, closing the door behind him.

Adam stood alone in the bathroom shocked and bewildered as he reached around and touched his smarting asscheek. He could feel the heat from the slap, he could FEEL Sauli's handprint rise up on his skin. He turned around to survey the damage in the mirror. "Damn!!! What the fuck?" he muttered to himself.

Suddenly he remembered he had somewhere to be, retrieved his towel from the floor, wrapped it back around him and proceeded to shave his face. As he shaved he mentally contemplated what had just happened. He had NO IDEA Sauli could be so forceful. Adam had never really gotten the whole 'pleasure & pain' thing. To him it was just a line in a song. He never really understood how pain could turn someone on. But he realized he WAS turned on. He was, in fact VERY turned on. It felt strange and sexy and naughty...dirty even.  He had to go but he pulled his towel off and viewed his ass in the mirror one more time. As he gazed at the now vividly red handprint on his ass, he moaned and smiled. "Damn!!"

Adam quickly finished getting ready and met up with Sauli in the kitchen as he was on his way out the door. Things were kind of awkward between them but in a very sexy way. Sauli grinned at Adam but didn't say a word.

"So....I guess tonight will be the night huh baby?" Adam pulled Sauli close to him feeling his cock immediately begin to get hard again.

"Yes. I will be here waiting for you to return my love" Sauli kissed Adam, hard and deep as he ran a hand over Adam's throbbing asscheek.

"I will fuck you tonight baby", Sauli whispered to Adam as he was walking out the door.

At the studio Adam tried hard to concentrate on the song he was recording. Thank God he wasn't writing today as he could only imagine what kind of lyrics he would come up with. All he could think about was Sauli ripping his clothes off, throwing him down on the bed and spanking him hard, over and over again. Adam's cock ached all day long.

When Adam arrived back home Sauli met him at the door wearing only a robe. Adam immediately took his lover in his arms and breathed in his freshly showered scent.

"I've missed you all day baby", Adam whispered into Sauli's neck.

"I have special time planned for you tonight".

Sauli led Adam through the house towards the bathroom. Candles were burning throughout and soothing music was playing.

"Would you like a bath my love?"

"Yes that would be wonderful baby. Thank you".

Sauli started to run a bath in the large garden tub and added some scented oil to the water. Candles had already been lit all around the bathroom and it smelled of cinnamon and black cherries. Sauli began to remove Adam's clothing until he stood fully naked in front of him.

"Raise your arms over your head my dear and close your eyes" Sauli instructed and Adam did as he was told. Adam's body shivered with nervous anticipation as he hoped that Sauli would spank him again. Sauli's hands traveled over Adam's entire body as he walked around him in a circle, touching him everywhere and eventually pausing with very gentle strokes on Adam's asscheek.

"Handprint still there", Sauli mused as he began the circular motion he had used earlier. Adam braced himself as he was getting so turned on waiting for Sauli to smack him again. But he didn't. Instead he bent down and placed butterfly kisses on Adam's asscheek.

"Get into your bath my lover and I will go open a bottle of wine for us".

Sauli left the bathroom quickly and Adam was once again left standing alone, feeling bewildered yet extremely turned on. He lowered himself into the hot, silky water and leaned his head back on the back of the tub. He closed his eyes and breathed in deeply contemplating what this night had in store for him. Adam had never been good at being submissive. It was very hard for him to not take charge and be the dominant lover yet somehow with Sauli it felt different. There was so much love between them, so much passion, so much mutual trust.

Adam opened his eyes to see Sauli standing above him, naked now and holding two glasses of wine. Adam immediately began to shift his position to make room for Sauli in the tub.

"No my love, I've already had a shower. This is YOUR bath. I will stay with you."

Sauli handed Adam his glass of wine and seated himself on the rug beside the tub.

Adam smiled at Sauli and raised his glass, "Cheers baby".

"How you say...Nostrovia?" Sauli teased as they clinked their glasses together and both took a long sip of wine.

Sauli put one hand into the water and began to gently stroke Adam's thigh.

"You're so good to me baby. I love you so much", Adam was feeling so overwhelmed with love and pleasure he thought he might cry.

"I love you too Adam. I want to make love to you tonight". Sauli smiled sweetly as he found Adam's hand in the water and squeezed it.

It had been a long time since Adam had been on the receiving end but at this moment, with Sauli, his brain flooded with every good hormone his body had to offer at the thought of being spanked and fucked by his beautiful boyfriend.

Sauli's hand continued to stroke Adam's thigh inching closer and closer to his growing erection.

Adam's breath caught in his throat as he threw back his glass and gulped down the last of his wine.

"Let me get you another glass my darling. I want you to be very relaxed tonight".

When Sauli left the room Adam found his hand in search of his own virgin entrance. He closed his eyes as he spread his legs wider and began to massage himself the silky water serving as an excellent lubricant. Touching himself, thinking of Sauli he was getting so turned on he realized he was moaning. He opened his eyes to find Sauli standing there staring at him.

"I....uhhhhh", Adam stammered feeling embarrassed.

"I like watching you touch yourself, don't stop", Sauli poured another glass of wine and placed it in Adam's free hand.

Sauli resumed his seat on the floor and poured his own glass of wine.

"Now I want to ask you some questions Adam and you only need to reply with 'yes' or 'no'...OK?"

"Yes". Adam's speech was already becoming low and sexy.

"Ahhh...see I teach you well already" Sauli chuckled, "Close your eyes my darling".

Adam did as he was told, closed his eyes and drew a deep, cleansing breath.

"Are you nervous for me to make love to you Adam?"

"Yes".

"But do you want me to make love to you?"

"Yes".

"When I spank you this morning, did it scare you?"

"Yes".

"When I spank you this morning, did it hurt you?"

"Yes".

"When I spank you this morning, did you like it Adam?"

Adam's breathing was becoming labored. He felt like he was in complete submission, being totally controlled by Sauli. He had never experienced anything like this before. Sauli once again began to stroke Adam's thigh in the warm, silky water.

"Put your finger inside yourself Adam".

Adam bit his lower lip and moaned lightly as he slid a long finger inside his ass. His glass of wine slipped out of his hand and fell to the floor, spilling it's contents onto the rug. He had to grip the side of the tub to stabilize himself.

"Is your finger inside you Adam?"

"Yes".

"When I spank you this morning, did you like it Adam?"

Adam's lips were trembling, "Yes" he whispered.

"Do you want me to spank you again Adam?"

"Ummm".

"Do you?"

"Yes, please".

Sauli's hand snaked between Adam's widespread legs and began to stroke and fondle his balls.

"Does it feel good with your finger inside Adam?"

"Yes, yes".

 Adam was fully aroused and the head of his cock poked up through the water each time he lifted his hips and slid back down on his own finger. Sauli took the base of Adam's cock firmly in his strong hand.

"Put in another finger baby", Sauli rose up onto his knees and leaned over the tub to kiss Adam as he began to stroke his cock.

Adam moaned into Sauli's mouth as he slid another finger inside himself.

Sauli grabbed Adam's hair and pulled his head back onto the back of the tub increasing the strokes on Adam's cock with his other hand.

"Mmmmm...yes", Sauli whispered as he leaned down and licked Adam's extended neck.

Adam bucked his hips up, matching the rhythm of Sauli's strokes and back down, fucking his own fingers. The water in the tub splashed about violently.

Suddenly Adam's body tensed, his hips bucked up one last time, fucking into Sauli's firm grip and slammed back down onto his ass-fucking fingers. Adam had been horny all day long, he knew he was getting close.

"Oh God!!!!" Adam cried out as his orgasm exploded, his cum bubbling up out of the water then oozing all over Sauli's still pumping fist.

Sauli jerked Adam's head back by his hair and continued to pump his cock as Adam's body shuddered with each wave of his orgasm.

Finally Adam's body went limp in the water, he extracted his fingers and pulled Sauli to him, kissing him deeply and passionately.

"Ohhhh baby", Adam cooed.

"Would you like to go to the bed now Adam?"

"Yes".

Sauli helped Adam out of the tub, dried him off and led him to the bedroom. Adam's legs were shaky and he leaned on Sauli for support as they walked arm in arm.

Both men stood fully naked embracing and kissing passionately for several minutes. Adam felt like his knees may buckle when Sauli ran both his hands down the full length of his back cupping his asscheeks and gently tugging them apart.

"Lie down on your stomach for me baby".

Sauli had Adam lie face down on the bed in a spread-eagle position.

"You such sexy man baby".

Adam shook slightly with nervous anticipation. He was having trouble relinquishing control. He turned his head from side to side but couldn't see Sauli.  He finally decided to close his eyes and TRUST. He gripped the headboard with both hands and began some deep breathing as he felt Sauli climb onto the bed between his legs.

Sauli's hands gripped both of Adam's hips and began to lift them upwards.

"Lift up baby and pull your knees up towards you, spread your legs wide."

"Is that comfortable baby?"

"Yes", Adam could hear the nervousness in his own voice.

"Just relax baby", Sauli spoke in a reassuring tone.

Sauli now positioned himself between Adam's widespread legs and ass raised up to him. He began to swirl his hands on the asscheeks again, swirl, swirl, spread....swirl, swirl, spread. Sauli blew a stream of warm breath onto Adam's entrance. Adam gasped.

"Now we need a safe word baby. If you ever want me to stop just say safe word and I will stop."

"Ummmm...OK."

"What should safe word be? How about 'glitter'?" Sauli giggled and Adam couldn't help but giggle himself because it sounded so utterly silly.

"OK, 'glitter' it is." Adam said wondering to himself why in the world he would NEED a safe word.

Sauli began to kiss Adam's ass cheeks, spreading them apart while intermittently flicking his tongue down and around his balls all the while his hand swirled circles on the asscheek that he had slapped that morning. Adam felt the goosebumps rise up on his skin.

Suddenly Adam felt the hot wetness of Sauli's mouth envelope his entrance. His body melted and a loud moan escaped his lips. Sauli swirled his tongue on Adam's rim and sucked him. The swirling hand suddenly disappeared....Adam felt the rush of air as the hand came down with a resounding SMACK on his ass so hard it caused his head to bang into the headboard. Adam cried out in pain as Sauli moaned into his ass and insert his tongue into Adam's hole.

Adam's brain felt hot, like it was melting. Tears stung his eyes as his moans got louder. He realized he was grinding his ass back into Sauli's face as the pain seared his mind while the pleasure teased his groin.

Sauli buried his face between Adam's asscheeks tongue-fucking him as he spread Adam's legs wider with his arms, his hands in search of the tender flesh of Adam's inner thighs.

Adam buried his face into the sheet to muffle the sound. He held tight to the headboard and continued to grind his ass into Sauli's hot face.

"Oh God baby......"

Sauli suddenly pinched Adam's inner thighs....HARD.

Adam's cry of pain had not even subsided when suddenly another hard slap on his ass. Sauli's tongue dug deeper into him.

"Oh God...damn baby...it hurts!"

Adam realized he was beginning to cry but at the same time he was so turned on he couldn't stop...he didn't want it to stop.

"Fuck baby....do it again!"

Adam rocked his body into Sauli's penetrating tongue yearning to feel the intense rush the spanking was giving him.

Sauli obliged with another slap, even harder than before.

Adam screamed into the sheet frantically searching his brain trying to recall what the safe word was.

"Ohhhh God!!" Adam sobbed into the sheet.

Suddenly Sauli disappeared. Adam was breathing heavily into the sheet, panting and gasping.

"Where???? Where did you go?" He whined.

Adam felt 2 warm, lubed fingers slide into him.

"Do you like me finger you Adam?"

"Ohhhh yesss baby".

Sauli delivered another hard smack as he plunged his fingers deep into Adam's ass.

Adam moaned and spoke into the sheet rocking his body into Sauli's fingers working his ass so expertly.

"Oh God, oh God, oh God!"

Adam became vaguely aware of Sauli's free hand swirling circles on his inner thigh, he opened his mouth to protest when his voice was stolen from his throat momentarily.  The pinch was strong and sustained and Adam likened the pain to that of a branding iron. Sauli's fingers simultaneously massaged Adam's prostate sending waves of pleasure coarsing through his veins. His mouth flew open involuntarily as a loud bellow escaped his throat.

"Ohhhhh yes baby", Sauli chanted.

"Now, now, now....you are ready now baby".

Before Adam realized what was happening Sauli launched into a series of slaps on his ass and the back of his thighs, each one so hard it caused Adam's head to slam into the headboard. The fingers continued to fuck him and apply delicious pressure to his prostate. Fuck, fuck, fuck......slap....fuck, fuck, fuck,.....slap! The pleasure and the pain....the pain was winning.

Adam cried into the sheet resisting the urge to reach back and push Sauli away from him. It was becoming unbearable, he searched his memory for the safe word....."what the fuck was it?" he screamed inside his mind...."glitter...yes glitter, glitter, glitter, glitter" he screamed to himself but didn't let the word escape his lips. "Not yet, not yet...just hold on..get yourself under control" he coached himself in his mind while he screamed into the sheet.

Somewhere inside Adam's brain the sensations of pleasure and pain began to swirl around and become intertwined, he felt a new feeling spread over him, warm like a blanket, dreamy like an array of kaleidescopic colors.

"Ohhh yesssss baby", Adam cooed as his sobs subsided. He felt high, floating, dreaming. His cock was rock hard and swayed beneath him.

Suddenly the fingers disappeared, strong hands gripped his hips as Sauli's long, hard cock slid into him.

"Mmmmmmmmm", Adam cooed into the sheets still sniffing from crying.

Sauli fucked Adam hard, he made love to him with intensity and passion.  His hands dug into Adam's hips as he pulled out and slammed back into him repeatedly. Adam gave himself completely to Sauli. He spread his arms wide on the bed, clinging to the sheets as his head grazed the headboard with each resounding thrust.

"Ohhh God baby, you fuck me so goooooood!"

Sauli was grinding into him, speaking loudly in Finnish, Adam felt a swirl of heat in his belly that spread to his loins.

"Honey.....I come!" Sauli cried out as he seized Adam's hips and thrust into him hard, slamming Adam's head into the headboard.

Adam moaned loudly as he felt the warmth of Sauli's love explode inside him just as his own orgasm built and spent itself on the sheet, shuddering his body and causing him to fall flat on the bed with Sauli lying full on top of him,  the cock still twitching in his ass.

The two men lie in this crumpled heap, panting and breathing heavily for several minutes. Sauli's lips found the sweaty nape of Adam's neck and kissed it gently.

"Oh Adam...I love you baby. Thank you for trusting me".

Sauli carefully removed himself from Adam and rose from the bed. He returned with a warm washcloth and sat on the side of the bed. Adam winced when the washcloth came into contact with his love wounds. Sauli carefully washed Adam and inspected the marks. He gently kissed each and every one then climbed up and lay beside Adam.

Adam turned his head to look at his lover. His face was streaked with sweat and tears, his eyeliner smeared. Sauli smoothed a damp lock of hair out of Adam's eyes.

"Are you OK my love?"

Adam lay like a ragdoll, he had never felt more spent or more satisfied in his entire life. He was barely able to speak.

"Yes baby...." he whispered, "I'm more than OK".

"The pleasure and the pain, I get it now."

Adam shakily lifted his upper body and turned to look at the marks on his backside.

"Damn.....wow....I definitely get it now." He said as he smiled sweetly at Sauli.

"I love you baby."

Adam took Sauli into his arms and began to kiss him passionately. His hand traveled slowly down his lovers back finding the asscheek....he began to swirl little circles.....

The End

 

 

 

 

 

 

Insatiable Adam

Note: This is a work of fiction inspired by a couple of tweets. It is not meant to disrespect Adam or his relationship. Wish them nothing but sweet, sexy times together :)

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Adam and Sauli both put on their plush, white hotel robes after enjoying a long hot shower and some awesome shower sex.

"Let's watch a movie" Adam said as he picked up the remote and plopped down on the couch.

"Yes a movie would be nice" Sauli said. "Would you like me to fix you a drink?"

"Yes doll, that would be great! You make the yummiest margaritas!"

"Could you also bring me my slippers?" Adam joked.

"Yes love, of course I will."

Adam leaned his head back on the couch and closed his eyes just listening to the ice tinkle in the glass as Sauli prepared his drink. A long smile spread across his face. Adam loved having his man do special things for him. He was loving everything about this relationship...

He opened his eyes to find Sauli standing there with the drink in one hand and slippers in the other. This was truly a dream come true.

"Here you go love", Sauli said as he handed Adam the drink and got down on his knees to put the slippers on Adam's large feet. "Now let's get these on so your feet don't get cold".

"Haha I was teasing about the slippers....but thank you dear".

Adam gazed at Sauli looking so deliciously subservient positioned at his feet. He couldn't resist the urge to tease him a bit.

"Mmmmmmmmm", Adam moaned as he licked salt from the rim of his glass and took a long suck of liquid through the pink straw. Adam looked at Sauli mischeviously over the rim of his glass, "You look really sexy down there baby". He continued to lick the salt from the rim of his glass and take long sucks through the straw, never taking his eyes off Sauli's.

"But we just have sex in the shower", Sauli said smiling at Adam.

"I know but I'm insatiable baby", Adam said as he spread his legs wider, placing both feet on either side of Sauli's knees.

"Insatiable? What does it mean?" Sauli looked perplexed.

"It means I can't get enough of you....it means I want you over and over and over again..." Adam's breath caught in his throat as he felt Sauli's hands on his thighs pushing the robe aside as he slowly slid them upwards. Adam placed his drink on the table beside him, untied the robe and splayed it open, exposing his full naked body and growing erection.

"Oh baby" Adam whispered as he watched Sauli's hands travel all over his body.

"Ohhhh yes baby", He kicked the slippers off his feet and spread his legs wider still. "Your mouth...I want your mouth baby!"

"I taste you now", Sauli spoke with a thick accent, "feel my breath upon your thighs".

Adam felt goosebumps rise on his skin and heat spread over his entire body as Sauli's warm, wet mouth came in contact with his tender inner thigh....licking, sucking, biting.

Adam bit his lip as he took his cock into his own hand, slowly stroking himself while Sauli expertly licked and sucked his balls. Sucking one into his mouth and then the other, over and over again.

"Oh fuck baby that feels so good...." Adam writhed his hips in pleasure and threw his head back as Sauli began to lightly lick the tip of his cock, now fully erect and engorged. Sauli's mouth was hot and wet as he flicked the rim of Adam's cock with his tongue.

Adam couldn't resist the urge and stuck two fingers in Sauli's mouth getting them wet "Ohhhh baby will you suck me now?" Adam's words came in gasps as he felt himself being overtaken by the pleasure.

"You're gonna suck my cock right now!" He placed one hand on the back of Sauli's head and fed his cock slowly into Sauli's hot, wet mouth with the other.

Adam released a spurt of pre-cum the moment Sauli's mouth enveloped the head of his cock. "Mmmmmmmmm" Sauli moaned.

Adam stroked the base of his cock while guiding Sauli's head up and down. He had to be careful not to force too hard, just enough to feel the head of his cock touch the back of Sauli's throat. "Yessss...just like that...nice and slow" Adam cooed as he guided Sauli's mouth down his cock, while jacking his hand up to meet lips each time.

Gradually quickening the pace, Adam's fingers were now entwined in hair. He felt himself losing control jerking Sauli's head down on his cock faster and faster, jacking himself into Sauli's mouth with the other hand. "Ohhh fuck yes baby...you suck me so damn good!"

Adam didn't want to choke his sweet boyfriend. "Come here baby" He said as he let go of Sauli's hair and pulled him up to him. "You're so damn good baby...". Adam sat Sauli on him, straddling his belly, untied his robe and pushed it off to the floor, running his hands over Sauli's chest and arms. "You're so beautiful" he said as he pulled Sauli to him and kissed him long and hard. Adam's hand found Sauli's hard cock and stroked it gently as both men moaned into each other's mouth. "Mmmmmmm..." Adam pulled off the kiss, his lips found Sauli's ear and he whispered "Do you want to fuck me?"

Sauli opened his mouth to speak and Adam slipped two fingers in, soaking them in saliva. He held Sauli's head with his ear to Adam's mouth as he reached around to massage Sauli's entrance. Adam was pleased to find that he was still warm, wet and open from the shower and he easily inserted two fingers inside. He held Sauli's head close to his and he heard Sauli gasp and speak something in Finnish that Adam didn't understand.

Adam whispered into Sauli's ear as he fingered him "Yes baby, you're so hot and tight" He inserted a third finger and Sauli arched his back. "You're gonna fuck me baby....you tell me when".

"Now...now" Sauli whispered. Adam removed his fingers and lifted Sauli up, positioning the ass over his cock. He slowly lowered Sauli onto him slipping his cock inside. "Oh fuck baby" Adam spoke in a high voice. Sauli cried out...more Finnish. Goddamn that was so hot it was driving Adam insane.

Adam threw his arms over his head onto the back of the couch "Do me" he said as Sauli's strong arms pinned his down.

Sauli began to ride Adam's cock slowly at first, then faster. Words were flowing out of both men's mouths...curse words, sex words, Finnish words. Adam bucked his hips fucking into Sauli letting the submissiveness overtake him. He leaned his head back, offering his neck to his lover. Sauli began to lick and kiss and bite his neck, breathing Finnish words all over his skin.

Sauli's hot ass was squeezing Adam's cock so tight, his sweat was dripping onto Adam's neck as he fucked him harder and harder. Adam was getting lost in the ecstasy. Words were coming out of his mouth and he didn't even know what they were. He loved being pinned down and fucked by Sauli. He felt his thighs begin to quiver and he knew he was about to lose control but he didn't want to, not just yet.

Suddenly Adam wrestled his arms from Sauli's strong grip and stood up, holding Sauli firmly by the ass and still on his cock. He moved to a plush rug in front of the fireplace and dropping to his knees carefully lowered Sauli onto his back. Adam slowly pulled out and said "I want to fuck you hard baby...be right back...don't move!" Adam sprinted naked to the bedroom of their suite to get some lube.

He lubed up his fingers and shoved three into Sauli...hard. Adam fingered Sauli, taking care to nudge his prostate repeatedly. He groaned with pleasure watching Sauli respond to him, moaning and writhing on the rug his beautiful arms raised above his head.

Adam took Sauli's cock into his mouth in one gulp. Deep-throating Sauli was easy for Adam and he did not hold back. His eyes locked on Sauli's as he both sucked him and finger-fucked him. Sauli's eyes held a look of disbelief as he spoke in Finnish, spoke in tongue...Adam didn't even know what he was saying but it was wicked hot!

Suddenly Sauli cried out "I come! I come!" Adam moaned and swallowed on Sauli's cock as he massaged his prostate harder. He felt Sauli's body go tense and his orgasm explode into his mouth, hot cum hitting the back of his throat. "Ahhhhhhh" Sauli cried. Over and over his hips fucked into Adam's face, his head whipping from side to side.

Adam continued to gently suck Sauli's cock until his body relaxed and his orgasm was spent. He slowly removed his fingers and immediately replaced them with his throbbing cock. Not a word was spoken.

Adam placed his arms underneath Sauli's knees and rolled him up, leaning over him and placing his hands on either side of Sauli's head.

Adam felt like he was going to cry as he began to fuck his beautiful boyfriend. The pleasure was so intense. He began to chant "Yes, Yes, Yes" with each thrust, his bottom lip began to quiver. He kissed Sauli hard and wet as he fucked him, sucking his tongue into his mouth. Sauli reached around and took hold of Adam's ass, pulling him deeper inside.

"Oh God baby!!!" Adam pounded Sauli harder and harder, their sweaty bodies making a slapping sound. "Yes, yes, yes....fuck yes" Adam chanted through gritted teeth. Sauli spoke in Finnish, something Adam had heard him say before. He knew what it meant: 'Come for me'. "Oh fuck baby...oh fuck, fuck, fuck...I'm gonna come!"

"Come for me", Sauli said, spoken in English this time.

When Adam came he cried out so loud he knew the other people in the hotel probably heard him but he didn't care. His orgasm exploded inside his lover and he saw fireworks! He rode a kaleidoscopic, purple hazed, wave of ecstasy like he had never experienced before in his life! Face to face, eyes locked on each other, Adam shuddered into Sauli again and again and again.

As his spasms subsided he collapsed. He buried his face into Sauli's neck as he felt the tears stinging his eyes. He spoke in a jagged whisper, "baby" was all he could say.

After a while Adam slowly removed himself and climbed up beside Sauli on the rug. He rolled him over on his side to inspect his back for rug burn. Adam applied little kisses to the growing red marks on Sauli's back. He snuggled up behind Sauli, wrapped his long leg around him and whispered into his ear, "Now THAT was a Finnish Fuck Fest".

The End :)

stuff I'm writing for Adam

Moving from my other VOX blog...originally published various dates

just some snippets that I wrote yesterday. I'm searching for some I tweeted a while back that were really good but I can't find them...snippets separated by asterisks

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Look, but don't touch me
Touch, but don't judge me
Hold, but don't squeeze me
Idolize...do you really wanna be me?
Open your eyes...do you really even see me?
You can want me but don't covet me
You can love me but don't need me
Do you love me?
Do you love me?
I want you to love me

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Written 1/10/10  

Embrace me
You can taste me
I know I'm a new flavor

Feel my eyes
are they getting through to you?
Read my lips
Oh God I want you, I want you....to

Love me darling
But don't get too close
Need me baby
But it's not supposed to be this way
So tell me
What am I supposed to say?

What am I supposed to say?
When you look at me that way?
Just love me...

 Encase me
Never to replace me
I am the one you want to savor

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It's so disturbing
How you always hang around
I'm not allowed to let you down
I'm here to please you

It's so disturbing
Your fascination's always there
I'm not a clown but do you care
Let me entertain you

Feel my eyes
are they getting through to you?
Read my lips
Oh God I want you, I want you....to

Love me darling
But don't get too close
Need me baby
But it's not supposed to be this way
So tell me
What am I supposed to say?

It's so disturbing
The approval that I seek
But you're not allowed to speak
Just feed me

It's so disturbing
That I don't remember yesterday
Or even let you try to find a way
To please me

But you don't own me
You don't know me
I'm not your pet
I'm not your prize
I'm not your pretty toy....anymore

Feel my eyes
are they getting through to you?
Read my lips
Oh God I want you, I want you....to

Love me darling
But don't get too close
Need me baby
But it's not supposed to be this way
So tell me
What am I supposed to say?

What am I supposed to say?
When you look at me that way?
Just love me...

To Berlin with Love

Moving from my other VOX blog...originally published on May 23rd, 2010.

Adam was roused from a light sleep by the feeling that someone was staring at him. He looked to his left, across the aisle to see Tommy Joe quickly snap his eyes shut. Adam smiled to himself and closed his eyes....remembering...

The London show in Heaven the night before was fantastic. The crowd was very fired up and Adam, his band and dancers really felt the love. Afterwards, the whole crew went to a club to celebrate. Tommy Joe lost track of his water to alcohol ratio and quickly became inebriated. Ever valiant, Adam took on the role of caretaker for drunk Tommy. He held him steady while they waited for their cab and Tommy wrapped his arms around Adam and held on tight. Back at the hotel Adam walked Tommy to his room, took off his boots and his jacket and helped him into bed. Adam pulled the covers up to Tommy's chin and tucked him in snugly. "Thank You" Tommy whispered. "Sure honey! That's what friends are for! Get some sleep doll we have an early flight." Adam bent down and kissed Tommy on the tip of his nose. Adam gazed at Tommy for a second, smiling to himself at how cute he looked, then turned to leave. "Adam...wait...Adam, I love you man...I really do." "I love you too Glitterbaby...nite-nite".

Adam was jolted as the plane touched down. He glanced over at Tommy, "Yay Berlin!" "What happens in Berlin stays in Berlin" Tommy joked. "So how are you feeling tequilla eyes?" Adam flashed Tommy a knowing smile and gave him a little wink. Tommy became a little flushed, whipped out his shades and slid them onto his face. "I'm locked and loaded and ready to roll!"

When the gang arrived at their hotel it was around 9pm. They had an early appearance on a television show so Monte suggested they all have dinner together before hitting the hay. "You guys go ahead, I'm really tired and really wired, I think I'll just order something and eat in my room." Adam excused himself and bid them all good-night. Once in his suite Adam went through his normal short stay unpacking ritual, changed into some comfy clothes and called room service. He ordered some whiskey, some water and a steak salad. Adam situated himself on the bed, propped up on some pillows and got the TV remote to check out the movies that were available. He set Avatar to start in 30 minutes and closed his eyes. Lying perfectly still he began some deep breathing, in through the nose and out through the mouth, slowly. Just as Adam began to feel relaxed there was a knock at his door. The waiter let himself into the room calling out "Room service?". "Come on in" Adam said without opening his eyes. The waiter rolled the serving cart into the room and began to set up Adam's dinner on the table. When he was done he stood at the side of the bed and asked Adam if he needed anything else. "No. I think I'm good. Thank you very much." Adam reached for his wallet on the bedside table and handed the waiter a fifty dollar bill. "Thank you sir" the waiter said as he bowed and turned to leave. "Could you put out the do not disturb sign on my door please?" Adam asked. "Yes, of course, sir. Have a good evening".

Adam sat down at the table and poured himself a whiskey. He took a long drink and savored the slight burn as the smooth liquid went slowly down his throat. "Mmmmmm". Adam began eating his salad as his movie started. Two bites in he heard another knock at his door. Feeling slightly annoyed Adam went to see who it was. When he opened the door he was pleasantly surprised to see Tommy. "Hi!" Tommy said "Want some company?" "Sure! I have steak and whiskey...wanna share it with me?" "Cool...two of my favorite things" Tommy said as he shut the door behind him. Adam noticed Tommy was wearing shorts and a t-shirt, "Did you not go to dinner with the gang?" "Nah...not really in the mood for noise and crowd tonight". "I hear ya buddy". Adam poured Tommy a whiskey and they had a little toast. "To Berlin!" Adam said as he raised his glass in the air to meet Tommy's. Adam collected a nice bite of salad with a juicy piece of steak onto the fork and offered it to Tommy. Tommy wrapped his lips around the fork and slid the food off slowly, gazing naughtily into Adam's eyes. "Mmmmm...that's really good". Adam and Tommy ate the salad, taking turns giving each other bites and sipping on their whiskey while they watched Avatar. Adam smiled broadly at Tommy, "Check my teeth?" "They're good" Tommy said and showed Adam his own teeth for inspection. "You're good too doll" Adam said.

They took the whiskey and moved over to the bed to watch the rest of the movie. They propped up on a million pillows and Adam turned off the lights. Only the light from the TV flickered in the room. "This is nice" Adam smiled at Tommy. "Yes it is" Tommy said. Sometime later Adam awoke to find Tommy snuggled close to him, his head nestled in Adam's underarm, sleeping, with a very peaceful look on his face. Tommy's hand was lying on Adam's stomach, one leg draped across Adam's. He tried hard to remain still so as not to wake Tommy. He just wanted to look at him for a while.

Adam contemplated what this all meant in terms of their relationship. The chemistry between he and Tommy was undeniable from the moment they met but over the past few months they had developed a very close friendship and a real connection. Whether or not Tommy is straight, gay or bi doesn't even matter to Adam because the bond is there, the attraction is there and there's no denying it. Adam has known this for a while but chose to lay back and let fate take the reins. He had no idea what would happen or if anything would happen and he liked that feeling of being suspended in anticipation and the freedom to just let it happen. His hopes that Tommy would eventually broach the subject were apparently coming to fruition tonight.

Adam realized he was stroking Tommy's hair and felt Tommy's hand begin to move on his stomach. Gliding slowly Tommy's fingers gingerly slid underneath Adam's t-shirt. Adam felt the goosebumps rise up on his skin at Tommy's gentle touch. His breath caught in his throat and he felt a rush through his veins! Adam decided to remain passive and let Tommy explore. There was not a sound in the room as the movie had ended. Adam could only hear Tommy's breathing get heavier as his fingers stroked Adam's skin. A finger brushed across Adam's nipple and a gasp escaped his lips. "Tommy" he whispered, his lips in Tommy's hair "Baby....that feels so good". Tommy did not speak and did not look up. Adam could feel Tommy getting hard against his leg as his fingers slid slowly across the waist of Adam's pants. Adam's own erection was growing and he shivered at the thought of Tommy touching his cock. He wanted Tommy to look at him, he needed to see his eyes! He kissed Tommy's hair and moved down to his forehead gently kissing and trying to direct Tommy's face towards him. "Baby can you look at me?" Adam spoke sweetly and softly. Tommy's hand suddenly stopped stroking and reached towards Adam's face. Adam took Tommy's hand into his and brought it to his lips. Adam kissed the tips of Tommy's fingers and slid them across his wet lips. When Adam slid his tongue in between Tommy's fingers he looked up, locking his gaze upon Adam's. Tommy watched as Adam slid his tongue up and down his fingers and slowly sucked each one into his mouth. Tommy's mouth moved closer and closer, involuntarily drawn to Adam's. Their eyes were locked upon each other's as Adam worked his oral magic on Tommy's virgin hand. Tommy was breathing heavily and suddenly pulled his hand from Adam's grasp. Adams lips were red and shiny and Tommy slid his fingers across them while biting his own lip. Adam knew that Tommy was curious. Adam knew that Tommy wanted to kiss him. But Adam knew that Tommy was tormented and confused.

Adam took Tommy's hand into his and snaked their fingers together, intertwined. "Tommy, babe, tell me what you want" Adam whispered, their lips just inches apart. Finally Tommy spoke, in a quiet, breathy whisper "I want....I want....." he struggled to get the words out, "I want this..." and brushed his lips against Adam's. Sparks flew between them...instant electricity! "I want...this" Tommy said again, louder this time and kissed Adam gently, lingering just a second, their eyes still locked upon each other's. "Oh God Adam...I want....this" Tommy kissed him again and Adam felt Tommy's tongue brush his lips. "Damn..." Adam thought to himself...he was having a hard time maintaining his composure at this point and his cock was pulsating in his pants. "Do you want to kiss me baby?" Adam asked taking Tommy's face into his hands.  "Oh God I want to kiss you so fucking bad!" Tommys lips were flush with Adam's and suddenly he was climbing on top of Adam, straddling him. "Fuck..." Adam said just as Tommy's tongue slid into his mouth. Adam melted into the kiss which was long and hard and wet and ravenous! Groans and moans escaped both mens' mouths as their tongues explored and danced together. Tommy's body was writhing on top of Adam's, his ass pressing on Adam's rock hard cock. Adam reached around and grabbed Tommy's ass and pressed him down hard. A jagged moan emanated from Tommy's mouth, still wide open, pressed hard against Adam's mouth. Adam could feel Tommy's cock pressing on his stomach. Finally Tommy slid his lips down Adam's neck and began to gently suck, breathing heavily into Adam's ear. "Oh shit baby I'm going to fucking come" Adam leaned his head back, offering up his throat to Tommy's mouth. Tommy pulled Adam's shirt off over his head and began to lick and suck his beautiful neck. "Oh God Adam" Tommy spoke into Adam's skin "I want you to come....I want to make you come....I want you to come all over me....I've fantasized about it!" "Fuck...are you sure?" Adam didn't know why he was asking that question because he was pretty damn sure Tommy was sure and he knew he was damn sure too! "Yes...God yes...I'm sure!"

Tommy slid off of Adam and sat back for a second. Breathing hard, both speechless their eyes locked together. "There's no going back..." Tommy leaned over and kissed Adam's stomach, swirling his tongue in Adam's navel and gliding it slowly downwards. "Can we take these off?" Tommy whispered into Adam's skin, tugging at the waist of the pajama pants Adam was wearing. Adam lifted up and pulled his pants down to his knees, Tommy pulled them off and threw them on the floor. Tommy just stared, his mouth trying to form some words, Adam now lying fully naked in front of him. "Adam...you're so beautiful...oh my God!" Adam pulled Tommy to him and kissed him again, softly and gently. Tommy pulled off and his lips found Adam's ear "I don't know how.....I want to make you come...how do I do it?" Tommy whispered, sounding distressed and shaking, his hand gliding down touching Adam's chest, his stomach, then his thigh..."Just do what you know...do what feels comfortable....it's me baby, I'm not going to judge you" Adam said in a reassuring tone that instantly set Tommy at ease. "Just touch me baby." Adam gently guided Tommy's hand to his cock and began to assist in stroking it. Together they stroked Adam's cock while Adam kissed and stroked Tommy's hair. "Mmmmm....baby you're doing good" Adam whispered. Soon Adam let Tommy take over. He raised his hands above his head and grabbed ahold of the headboard and began to move his hips in rhythm with Tommy's strokes. Adam bit his lip as he watched Tommy's hand move up and down his cock. "Oh fuck yes baby, you're doing damn good!" Adam began to sense the feeling of Tommy's hot breath on his cock and noticed that Tommy was inching his mouth closer and closer...."Oh my God if his mouth touches my cock I'm going to explode" Adam thought to himself. "I want to taste you Adam...I want to so bad" Tommy said and looked up into Adam's eyes in search of approval. "Oh God..." was all Adam could say. Tommy's strokes and Adam's hips were in perfect sync....suddenly Adam felt Tommy's warm, wet lips brush the head of his cock. "Yes baby...oh God yes that's good".  Adam knew it was not going to be long until he came. This was way too hot! He wanted it to last forever but he knew he couldn't hold out much longer! Tommy's strokes were getting faster, his lips tighter as he was taking in more of Adam's cock each time he went down. Tommy was moaning with Adam's cock in his mouth. "Oh shit...oh baby I'm going to come!!" Adam had to resist the urge to straight up fuck Tommy's mouth it felt so damn good. Tommy pulled off just long enough to say "Come for me...please come for me!!!" Tommy plunged Adam's cock into his mouth and stroked harder and faster, covering the entire length of Adam's cock with his mouth and his hand. Tight, slick, hot, wet....Adam's mind was spinning!!! "Oh fuck yes baby I'm going to come!!" He held tight to the headboard and arched his back one last time. "Ohhhh I'm coming...oh FUUUUCK!!!!" Tommy pulled off just at that moment and let Adam's come spray his lips and face then he licked and sucked as Adam fucked into his mouth repeatedly until his orgasm was spent.

to be continued...     

An Open Letter to Adam Lambert and all Glamberts

Originally written on Twitlonger.

 

On Sunday 27th June 2010, @number8gurl said:

@adamlambert I just got home from Foxwoods last night and I just wanted to say thank you for everything! I had the most fabulous time ever!! The joy of the trip was two-dimensional for me. Of course, seeing you live for the very first time was beyond amazing. I didn't have the best seat but I could see you and I could hear your incredible vocals. I swooned and swayed, cried a little, smiled a huge smile, sang along, danced along and fist pumped along with you! It was SO MUCH FUN and when it was over I felt spent, satisfied but still wanting more! You are an amazingly gifted performer and give so much of yourself every night. It's very obvious that this tour is your life right now, your 'wife' if you will LOL and I just want you to know that your fans REALLY appreciate this but because we love you the way that we do we also worry about you and want you to try and find some time here and there to just 'be' and have some fun for yourself. Take care of yourself and get rest!

Now I must talk about the amazing people I met for the very first time. Over this past year or so I've been talking to these people online pretty much every day. We were all brought together by our love and passion for you and your music. We vote and request and purchase as a group; we work on fan sites; we share videos and links and discuss and 'flail' together; we're all learning together how to navigate this tricky road that is radio; we watch, read and listen to interviews and marvel at your intelligence, your ability to articulate and your wicked sense of humor; we salivate with nervous anticipation whenever you are going to be on television; we promote you across the internet; we defend you (when necessary). We share our love for you and how you have inspired us individually (these stories are always surprisingly similar no matter how different the people may be). We are an amazingly diverse group of people, a community if you will. There are the leaders and the followers; there are the organizers and worker bees and the cowboys that keep us moving as a group in the right direction; there are those that constantly spread positivity, light and love and those that provide a calming voice of reason when necessary; there are those with special talents that share their art with everyone; the more fortunate don't hesitate to help out those with lesser means and I personally have witnessed acts of extreme generosity; there are the more timid and soft-spoken who serve to help balance out things with the stronger personalities and more outspoken folks. All the bases are covered and it all works splendidly!

Because we are a functioning society we have the power to make things happen and we celebrate these triumphs! And BECAUSE we are a functioning society we are able to regroup and move forward when things don't go as we expected. We shun negativity, we don't accept failure. We are teenagers, young people, Mothers, Fathers, Grandparents, young, old, different nationalities and races from every state in the union and every country around the world! We carry forward in a joyous way with a common goal to support and promote someone that we believe in and share a deep love for....you Adam. For this, we thank you Adam, for just being you. You lead by example and that IS the purest, most honest, most effective form of leadership that exists in the world.

Even more phenomenal is that, over time, people within this Adam fandom have become friends. We have met people with whom we have things in common. Friendships have also been developed between the most unlikely of odd couples. We HAVE found, through your example, the ability to embrace our differences and find the common ground. It's incredibly interesting to talk to people from other walks of life, people from different countries and cultures. We share viewpoints and 'agree to disagree' at times. We love and support each other. For me personally I've been having a very difficult time with my 19 year old daughter and some things going on in her life that weren't what I had envisioned for her. These women, these amazingly compassionate women, many of whom have children themselves, have rallied around me and helped me deal with this situation. It's been extremely helpful and I'm so grateful for the love and support. So guess what Adam? You will probably be happy to know that we actually DON'T talk about you ALL of the time LOL. But you are at the center of it all, you are our passion and our love and you are what brought us together.

At Foxwoods I got to meet many of these amazing people for the very first time. It was as if we already knew each other (because we did). We hugged each other like old friends and took pictures together and laughed and danced together. We snuggled up at restaurant tables and talked about our love for you and how our families and 'real-life' people reacted to our 'obsession'. And after the concert we all met up at a club and had the ultimate group 'Adamgasm'. When they played 'If I Had You' and 'Whataya Want From Me' we all sang in unison at the top of our lungs! We clinked our glasses together in toasts and celebrated!!

I hereby declare that I'm no longer going to use the term 'real-life' to distinguish between people in my life and my Adam friends because these are the most 'real' people I've ever known! They have brought joy to my heart and added quality to my life!

I'm deeply moved and just wanted to say that it was so great meeting those that I got to meet. I hope to meet more of you. You are awesome, awesome people!

Adam I'd just like to thank you again for doing what you do (so perfectly), for being the amazing person that you are and for bringing us all together...connected in love.

Take care,
Love Stephanie aka Number8gurl

ps: I'll see you in Knoxville next week. I'm bringing my daughter with me :)

A Mother's Heart

Moving from my other VOX blog...originally written on July 2nd, 2010.

 

Her words tonight cut me like a knife

I don't understand when she tells me I'm ruining her life

She says she's moving somewhere new

Where I can't tell her what to do

Deep inside the aching starts

As I begin to understand a Mother's heart

 

A Mother's heart

She'll smile when it is breaking

A Mother's heart

No love will be forsaken

As strong as steel

Beating strong

A Mother's heart

Will carry on

 

She tells me she loves him more than me

Her life is her life and to let her be!

Sleeping with the enemy

She doesn't see what this does to me

Worry tries to tear apart

The pieces of this Mother's heart

 

A Mother's heart

she'll take whatever's given

A Mother's heart

To feel love means that she's living

As fragile as

The thinnest shell

A Mother's heart

is a living hell

 

Smiling through tears

Trying to let go of 18 years

Watching her walk down the devil's path

Knowing there's no limit to the wrath

of this Mother's heart

 

A Mother's heart

Is deeper than the ocean

A Mother's heart

is stronger than the sea

A Mother's heart

will love you for forever

 

Will bear the burden when times get tough

Will carry the load when it gets too rough

A Mother's heart

will forget the sorrow

with the promise of another tomorrow...

Just something I wrote

Moving from my other VOX blog...originally composed on August 13th, 2010.

 

Having a SHITTY day.....just came to me...it's not verse/chorus/verse/bridge/verse/chorus...it's all mixed up...needs work. My songs are always very literal....that's just the way I write...cuz I have no professional training in song writing LOL! A few shots of whiskey often send me here writing down stuff...it was actually spurred by a feeling that my 19 yo daughter just looks to me for money/food/laundry/etc...and I was just feeling very down about that...she hasn't shown me any appreciation in a very long time...she takes me for granted and that really hurts. But it kind of turned into a song about Adam...so it's kindof about both.

 

What do you want from me?

I'm at your service

I'm sorry if my presence

makes you nervous

Can we take a moment

to assess the situation

Is this reality

or some fucked (messed) up celebration

 

I'm here for you

please tell me why can't you see

why can't you tell me what you want from me

 

What do you want from me?

I'm an open book

I'm sorry if my story

wasn't worth a 2nd look

Can you see forever

With me not there

More importantly

Do you care

 

 

rip me open, see me bleed

take the best, take what you need

leave me broken open

leave me broken open

leave me broken open

leave me broken.....

 

What do you want from me?

Time marches on

Thankful for the memories

And the words of this song

I've moved on

I've found my place...

But I will NEVER forget your face...

Untitled

WARNING TO MY VOX NEIGHBORS: THIS IS A WRITING EXPERIMENT. IT IS COMPLETE FICTION USING THE NAMES OF REAL PEOPLE. IF YOU ARE SENSITIVE TO OR OFFENDED BY MALE ON MALE SEXUAL CONTENT PLEASE DO NOT READ THIS ENTRY. IF YOU ARE INTERESTED THEN PLEASE FEEL FREE TO READ (COMMENTS ARE TURNED OFF THOUGH). THANK YOU.

 

Love on the Bus

Part One

Adam is alone in his dressing room getting ready for the final show of the Season 8 American Idols Live tour. “I can’t believe this tour is going to be over” he thinks as he carefully applies his charcoal eyeliner to each eye. He begins smudging the eyeliner slowly with blue shadow, taking care to apply the same amount to each eye. Adam sighs as he begins working with his palette of blue and silver shadows, like an artist on canvas, he paints his eyes to create his signature look. He thinks back to the very beginning and realizes that this American Idol journey has changed his life, it has changed him. It has presented him with so many opportunities and blessed him with some lifelong friends. It’s been a whirlwind experience but one night in particular will be burned into his memory forever. The sexual banter between he and Kris was, for the most part, a running joke, at least to the media and the public, but Adam always knew…he always knew there was something there, something between them that made their friendship something very, very special. He never planned to act upon it; he never banked on anything happening between them. Adam had resolved himself to that fact, at least until that night…

 

Just three weeks earlier Kris had approached him and expressed an interest in a sexual encounter. Adam was both shocked and thrilled! After some discussion about how it would go down and all of the consequences considered, both he and Kris agreed that this was something they both wanted to do. It was the most erotic, loving and exciting 12 hours of Adam’s entire life! The passion was raw and electric between them. It came in huge waves and they yielded to it and rode it out as one! Kris’ wanton desire for Adam sent him over the moon with ecstasy as they explored all the possibilities of sexual pleasure. Afterwards, they had a very long talk and agreed that it was a once in a lifetime thing and they made sure that their friendship was completely intact.

 

A knock at the door jolted Adam back to reality. A stage-hand stuck his head in the door “You have 10 minutes.” “OK, thanks”. Adam felt a little sad as he packed up his make-up for the last time. He put on his jacket and chains, took one last look in the mirror and walked out the door. As the lights came down on Danny’s set Adam heard the familiar roar of the crowd as his intro played on the big screen. He smiled to himself. “Hey Adam”, Adam turned to see Kris walking towards him. “Good luck tonight” “Yeah, thanks man, you too!” Adam gave Kris a knowing smile and Kris gave him a thumbs up as he disappeared down the hallway. The first notes of ‘Whole Lotta Love’ played and Adam said out loud to himself “And here we go…” He stepped onto the stage, took a firm hold of the microphone and belted out his best ‘Whole Lotta Love’ ever! His final set was incredible and Adam felt the love that flowed so unselfishly from the crowd of adoring fans!

 

After the show and signings the producers had planned a huge celebration for the Idols at the venue. They were to spend the night at the hotel, get up the next morning and do some press, then catch their respective flights that would take them all their separate ways.

 

At the end of ‘Don’t Stop Believin’ the Idols remained on the stage for a full five minutes. They were cheering on the roaring crowd and taking bows. Finally, they exited the stage, arm in arm. Adam returned to his dressing room to change clothes and then prepared to go outside to sign autographs. There was an amazing crowd of fans and he took his time and signed for all of them. Kris was there signing as well and Adam looked up several times to see Kris looking at him with some very sad puppy dog eyes. Adam would just smile at him and Kris would smile back. They were going to be OK.

Feeling a little drained, Adam decided to take a short break before making an appearance at the party. He felt the twinges of a headache in his temples. He decided to seek some solace on the tour bus. Adam was getting his book out of his duffle bag when he heard someone behind him. He turned, book in hand, and was a little startled to see Kris standing there.

 

“Hey Kris. Thought I’d take a break before the party. Tonight’s crazy you know?”

 

“Yeah, it is” Kris said, looking down at the floor. He looked up and stared at the book in Adams hands.

 

“Feel” he said. “Hmmm I bet I can guess what that book is about.” Although his tone was joking, his eyes were dead serious.

 

“Kristopher, you could not be more wrong” Adam said and laughed. “I do have other interests in my life besides sex my good friend.”

 

“Yeah, of course” Kris said nervously, still looking at the floor.

 

“So Kristopher, what’s on your mind?” Adam sensed that Kris wanted to talk to him about something.

 

Kris paused for a moment took a deep breath and looked up into Adam’s eyes. His look was both stern and wanton.

 

“Adam” Kris said, stammering…”Adam, you remember that night right?” a slight blush spreading over his cheeks.

 

“Are you fucking kidding me? Of course I remember! Best night of my life!” Adam felt a slight tug in his groin as he smiled at Kris.

 

“Is something wrong?” Adam asked growing a little bit concerned.

 

“Well” Kris shoved his hands in his pockets and started nervously rocking back and forth on his heels “Well, the thing is I kinda been thinking about that night….like a lot”

 

“Yeah?” Adam said as he laid his book down on the bunk.

 

“Yeah” Kris said softly, digging his hands deeper into his pockets.

 

“I can’t STOP thinking about it Adam! It’s getting fucking ridiculous!”

 

“I’ve tried so hard to leave it alone, but I just can’t” Kris slowly looked up at Adam.

 

“Kris, what are you saying? I thought we agreed…”

 

“I know what we agreed Adam” Kris’ voice was soft and a little sad.

 

“But things are different now…I mean with me…I mean I…”

 

“Kris, we agreed it would just be a one-time thing…you’re married for Christ’s sake and I’m in a committed relationship with someone that I care for” Adam was beginning to feel nervously excited but did not let it show on his face. He had never for a second wanted it to be a ‘one-time thing’.

 

“Spare me the lecture OK?” Kris’ voice sounded both hurt and angry.

 

“I know all of that…but it doesn’t change things…at least not for me”

 

Kris looked Adam square in the eyes “So it’s fine with you to just leave it this way? Is that all it was for you, just a one night stand?”

 

“Kris, God no! You have no idea…it’s been hard…I was just trying to do what’s right!” Adam felt a lump rising up in his throat.

 

“This couldn’t be a more fucked up situation, I know that…but it is what it is…and dammit I want it…”

 

“Kris” Adam said softly

 

“I want you Adam! I’ll never stop wanting you!” Kris was visibly shaking.

 

Adam felt tears stinging his eyes, he opened his mouth but no words came out.

 

Kris took a step forward, closer to Adam.

 

“Tell me that you want it too Adam…please” It broke Adam’s heart to see Kris in so much pain and torment.

 

“Kris, it’s not about what I want…or what you want…it’s about…”

 

Kris’ eyes glistened with tears but he spoke angrily.

 

“OK. Then tell me that you DON ’T want it…right now and I’ll go away!”

 

Kris took another step closer to Adam, both arms by his sides with his fists clenched

 

“I…ummm…Kris…you know…what we had was wonderful…it was incredible…but…”

 

Adam realized that he was staring at Kris’ lips remembering how they felt, how they tasted…his eyes roamed to the veins in Kris’ neck, tense and throbbing. He looked into Kris’ dark eyes locked onto his…suddenly Kris’ arms were around him, his face buried in Adam’s neck. He felt Kris’ warm breath on his skin as the emotions began to flow through his mind and his body and he knew resistance was futile.

 

Adam drew a deep breath, breathing in Kris’ smell, and wrapped his arms around him squeezing tightly.

 

“Kris” Adam whispered “Oh God baby”

 

“Adam” Kris’ spoke into Adam’s neck, his lips warm and wet. The feel of Kris’ lips on Adam’s skin sent electric sensations all over his body.

 

“Kris, baby, tell me what you want” Adam whispered into his hair.

 

Kris’ mouth found it’s way to Adam’s ear and he whispered, breathy and staccato “I…want…you…to….come…in…my…mouth”.

 

“Oh God, fuck Kris….baby…yes…this is crazy…yes I want it too!” Adam felt his blood rushing through his body and he felt his cock getting hard. He lowered his hands and cupped Kris’ ass and pressed him closer.

 

Before either could say another word Kris’ lips were on Adam’s, warm and wet and hungry “Adam, I want you so bad!”

 

Although Adam felt like he should be the one who was in control of this situation he also knew most definitely that he was not. Neither of them were. The passion and desire between them was simply too strong to resist.

 

Kris was kissing Adam softly, soft moans coming out of his mouth and into Adams . Adam broke away from Kris’ lips and talked into his hair “I don’t know Kris, do you think its safe here?” he said in a desperate tone, glancing around the empty bus.

 

“Yes…everyone is at the party…I locked the door when I came in…all the blinds are closed”

 

With that, Adam took Kris’ face in his hands and kissed him, hard and hungrily, plunging his tongue into Kris’ mouth, exploring. Guttural moans formed in Kris’ throat and escaped through his mouth only to be met with Adam’s.

 

“Oh fuck Kris….”Adam said as he felt Kris’ hands lift his shirt and run up his belly and chest. He lifts Adam’s shirt up over his head and throws it on the floor. Kris’ hands and mouth are all over Adam’s chest and nipples, kissing, rubbing, nibbling.

 

“Oh Adam…you taste so damn good…I just want to taste you…every bit of you…all of you”

 

Adam’s breath escapes his lips in a gasp as he feels his bulging cock straining the zipper of his jeans.

 

Kris slowly slides his tongue down Adam’s belly as he drops down to his knees.

 

“Oh shit…Kris…oh my God…I can’t believe this is happening” Adam speaks in gasps.

 

Kris quickly unbuckles Adam’s belt and looks up at him as he slides his tongue along the waist of Adam’s jeans…just behind the button.

 

“Damn Kris you are driving me insane!”

 

“Mmmmm…you taste so good Adam”

 

Kris unbuttons Adam’s jeans and pulls the zipper down slow.

 

“Adam I want to suck your cock and feel you come in my throat” Kris’ voice is soft, deep and jagged.

 

Kris tugs Adam’s jeans down to his ankles. He helps Adam step out of them and throws them aside. Now with Adam standing fully naked before him Kris just looks for a moment.

 

“Oh Adam…fuck man, I fucking love you so much…you are so fucking beautiful!”

 

Adam feels a flush of heat spread over his body and a lump forming in his throat.

 

“Kris, I love you too…I’ve always loved you dammit!” Adam feels such a surge of emotion and passion, it’s like nothing he’s ever experienced in his life.

 

Kris leans forward and begins to lick Adam’s hands, his mouth hot and wet. A moan escapes Adam’s mouth.

 

Kris moans and talks while licking and sucking on Adam’s fingers.

“Mmmm…Adam you taste so damn good!”

 

Adam feels his cock rise higher as Kris’ hair brushes up against it.

 

“Baby…Kris…please take my cock in your mouth…I want it so badly!” Adam is dizzy and feels the adrenaline racing through his veins

 

Kris looks up at Adam as he begins to lightly lick and lap at the head of Adam’s cock.

 

“Oh God…Kris your mouth feels so warm and wet and incredible” Adam leans his head back and plants his feet a little wider on the floor.

 

Kris applies some suction while stroking the base of Adam’s cock with both hands.

 

“Mmmm…” Kris’ moans reverberate on Adam’s cock causing Adam to gasp

 

“Oh fuck yes…Kris baby you’re doing it so damn good!” Adam’s voice is dirty and sexy sounding

 

Kris takes more and more of Adam’s cock into his mouth, slowly inching deeper and deeper. He swallows on the head and Adam moans “Oh God…Oh God Kris…damn oh my God!” He feels his thighs begin to quiver as he strokes Kris’ hair.

 

Kris grabs Adam’s hips and guides them forward, pulling Adam’s cock in and out of his tight mouth, making sure to hit the back of his throat each time, slowly at first, gradually quickening the pace.

 

“Ohhhhh…” Kris moans with each thrust and tightens his lips on Adam’s throbbing cock…over and over…wrecklessly, Kris rides Adam’s cock with his mouth.

 

“Oh my God Kris…I’m gonna come” Adam feels himself about to go over the edge.

 

Suddenly Kris slows and pulls off of Adam’s cock. He looks up at Adam and gives him a teasing look that is tinged with strong desire. His lips are shiny, red and swollen.

 

“Kris…baby” Adam says feeling himself teetering on the brink of orgasm.

 

Kris takes his fingers to his mouth and slides them in and out, covering them with his saliva and Adam’s pre-cum….he reaches his hand between Adam’s legs….a gasp escapes from Adam’s lips and he spreads his legs wider.

 

Kris touches his moist finger to the place just behind Adam’s balls and Adam moans ”Oh fuck Kris…”

 

Kris massages the moisture around Adam’s ass and then gently enters him with one finger.

 

“Oh fuck Kris….oh baby…that…feels…oh shit…Kris” Adam feels he is speaking in tongues from pure ecstasy, not even understanding the words coming out of his mouth.

 

Somewhere deep within his mind Adam knows that they are too loud, that someone outside could hear…but he’s helpless to stop it…he doesn’t give a fuck!

 

Kris inserts a second finger and plunges them deep inside Adam.

 

“Oh shit Kris…oh my God baby…oh fuck yeah”

 

“Oh Adam you feel so good baby…SO DAMN GOOD…your tight ass squeezing my fingers”

 

Kris takes Adam’s cock back into his mouth, gently sucking the head while he fucks Adam with his fingers increasingly faster and harder.

 

Kris’ mouth slides up and down Adam’s entire cock in rhytmn with his fingers

 

”Oh fuck Kris..oh my God Kris..”Adam screams!

 

“I’m going to come Kris…oh…fuck…oh my God!” Adam feels his orgasm building, swirling around and around and growing larger and larger…Kris’ fingers plunging into him his warm wet mouth swallowing Adam’s cock over and over again…

 

Adam’s muscles tense and he explodes into Kris’ mouth!

 

A long wail escapes Adam’s lips. Kris sucks hungrily and moans uncontrollably his lips flush on Adam’s body, his mouth locked on Adam’s cock.

 

Adam takes Kris’ head into his hands and tilts his hips towards Kris’ mouth…wanting to give him everything! Kris sucks hungrily as Adam’s hips jerk with each spasm as he comes deep into Kris’ throat.

 

“Ohhhhhh fuck baby…” Adam says in a low whisper as his spasms finally subside.

Kris feels Adam’s knees buckle, turns him towards the bunk and eases him down to a sitting position, still gently sucking on Adam’s cock until it is soft and pliable.

 

Adam feels high, like he’s floating or flying. Kris remains between Adam’s legs, with his cock still in his mouth, gently, gently sucking.

 

Adam strokes Kris hair. “Wow…Kris…baby…that was incredible…amazing…” Adam’s voice is slurred and sexy sounding.

 

Finally Kris looks up at him, his eyes sparkling and black.

 

“Oh Adam….I….thank you…that was…I don’t have words….amazing….you are so incredible” Kris’ voice catches in his throat as he kisses Adam lightly on his inner thigh.

 

“Adam…I love you…you know I love you right?”

 

“Yes, of course I do. There is no way that something as incredible as that could come from anything less than love”.

 

Adam pulls Kris upwards and kisses him. The kiss is passionate and scorching. Adam hungrily lapping and exploring Kris’ mouth, tasting his own cum.

 

Adam can’t help but think how this situation is both incredible and bizarre. He chuckles to himself a little and whispers into Kris’ ear

 

“I find it very ironic that the best lover I’ve ever had in my life is a straight guy. You are one hot little pistol and I knew it the first time I laid eyes on you.” Adam mimics a growl and bites playfully on Kris’ neck.

 

“Thanks man that means a lot coming from you. I don’t think I have to tell you that you are the hottest man on the planet. You are simply impossible to resist.”

 

Kris sits back on his heels and presses on his cock uncomfortably.

 

“Kris baby…” Adam says in a breathy voice…”Whatever you want, just tell me, I love letting you call the shots. It’s a new experience for me, being more submissive. It just feels so RIGHT with you….whatever you want baby…just tell me”.

 

“I want to make love to you again” Kris says with urgency in his voice.

 

“I’ve relived that memory over and over in my mind a thousand times. I need to feel you again, just like that”.

 

Kris pulls a comforter and pillow from one of the bunks and creates a makeshift bed on the floor. He motions for Adam to lie down on his stomach. Adam smiles at him sweetly and obeys. Standing above Adam’s naked body Kris begins to remove his clothes…

 

“God…Adam…you are so fucking beautiful…”

 

to be continued…

 

 

 

 

 

Kris removes his clothes and kneels down beside Adam. He slowly runs his fingers up the back of Adam's leg, over his cheek and up his back as he lies down beside him. Adam turns to face Kris. Without a word they are arm in arm, legs entwined, two naked bodies writhing, hands roaming everywhere. They kiss, long and lovingly and Adam feels that now familiar rush of emotion. He feels like, at this moment, there is no one else in the entire world, nobody and nothing except he and Kris in this moment...

Adam can feel Kris' hard cock rubbing up against his body.

"Kris" he whispers softly, "make love to me".

Kris begins to rise then bites his lip. His voice cracks as he tries to speak.

"Adam, I thought we were never going to be together again."

Adam lies his head back on the pillow with a serious look on his face.

"Did you REALLY think that?"

Kris bites his lip again..."No! No...I couldn't bear to let myself think that...I knew...somehow...some way..."

Kris leans down and kisses Adam once more, hungrily and wet! Kris pulls off the kiss with a jerk and looks at Adam, his eyes full of desire and desperation as he smoothes a strand of hair out of Adam's eyes.

"I have never, in my entire life, wanted anything or anyone as much as I want you right now Adam."

"Kris" Adam says, reaching up and brushing Kris' cheek with his hand, "Me too...me too baby".

Kris raises his eyebrows at Adam and smiles...Adam instinctively knows what he wants and obediently rolls over on his belly, rises up on his knees, spreads his legs wide apart and lowers his head onto the pillow, stretching his arms out over his head. Adam breathes in a deep, cleansing breath and realizes that submitting to Kris is the most erotic and thrilling thing he has ever experienced. It's an overwhelming feeling of love, trust and freedom that sends Adam's emotions running through him like a freight train. He immediately feels his cock getting hard again.

Kris positions himself behind Adam between his legs. He places a hand on each of Adam's cheeks and gently spreads them apart. Kris leans in close and Adam's breath catches in his throat as he feels Kris' warm mouth gliding on his skin. Kris takes the first taste of Adam touching gently with his tongue. Adam feels a shock of electricity course through his body and his cock. A moan escapes his lips. Kris swirls his tongue around Adam's ass, alternately licking and sucking as he hears Adam's moans become louder.

"Ohhh...baby...Kris...baby...I never knew...I never knew it could be this good" Adam sounds dreamy and high.

Kris buries his face in Adam's ass swirling his tongue around and around.

"Mmmmm...Adam you taste so damn good" Kris talks into Adam's skin, his mouth hot and wet.

"Oh baby...Kris touch me...baby I need to feel you on my cock!"

Kris reaches his hand around to stroke Adam's rock hard cock. He strokes him gently while continuing to suck and lick him...

Adam is moaning..."Mmmm...Kris...feels...soooo...good baby".

Suddenly Kris' tongue becomes firmer and Adam feels it enter him in short, quick bursts...over and over again.

"Oh God...fuck...Kris...you make me feel so good baby".

Suddenly Kris moves away from Adam and reaches for his jeans.

"Whaaaa...what are you doing?" Adam asks speaking in short gasps.

"Lube" Kris says, "I brought some and a condom" Kris' voice sounds completely desperate.

"Damn, you came here expecting to fuck me didn't you Kristopher?" Adam looks back at Kris and smiles sexily.

"HOPING....not expecting....but definitely hoping".

Kris quickly pulls a small container of lube and a condom out of his pants pocket. His hands are shaking as he opens the container and applies a small amount to two of his fingers.

Adam gasps as he feels the slick warmth on Kris' fingers massaging him and then sliding inside him.

"Oh Kris...yes baby...feels so damn good".

Adam can feel Kris' rock hard cock touching the back of his thighs...

"Kris...oh fuck baby...more, give me more!"

Adam leans his hips back as Kris plunges his fingers in and out of him, deeper and deeper.

"Oh fuck Adam...I want to fuck you so bad baby!!"

Kris inserts a third finger into Adam. Adam arches his back and pivots his hips, rocking into Kris' fingers over and over again.

"Oh God baby....Kris...please fuck me Kris!!" Adam is talking into the pillow, both hands gripping the blanket.

"Fuck..."

Adam feels Kris remove his fingers from inside him, hears the rip of the wrapper and then...feels Kris' hands gripping his hips.

Kris slides into Adam slowly but deeply...

Adam's mind is searing with the feel of Kris filling him up.

"Oh Godddddd Kris!"

"Oh yes, yes, fuck yes!" Kris speaks through gritted teeth as he slides his cock into Adam, deeper and deeper inside.

Adam looks back at Kris panting...

"Oh God baby...you feel so good inside me!"

"Adam...damn baby" Kris' grip on Adam's hips tightens as he grinds into him even harder, over and over again.

"This...is...what...I...want...oh...God...I...have...to...have...YOU...Adam!"

Kris' thrusts are so powerful that Adam feels himself sliding on the blanket. His head buried in the pillow...he feels dizzy, spinning, like he and Kris are weightless...fucking in mid-air!

Adam rises up and grabs hold of the bunks on either side of him to stabilize his body...he pushes his ass back, rocking into Kris as Kris thrusts into him.  Kris reaches up and drags his nails down the entire length of Adam's back.

"Oh fuck!" Adam arches his back and begins rocking himself back into Kris harder and harder...

"Fuck me baby...fuck yesssss!"

Adam doesn't recognize the voice coming out of his mouth. He hears moans and wails and sex noises all around him.  His mind is spinning, his body is on fire.

Kris reaches around and takes Adam's throbbing cock in his hand as he slows his thrusting down to a smooth steady rhythm...

"Oh Kris...oh baby" Adam moans...he is freely and completely giving himself to Kris and it feels so wonderful!

Adam feels the emotions swelling up inside him...swirling, swelling, building...

"Oh God Kris.."

Kris kisses Adam's back as he slowly fucks him and strokes him...

"Come for me baby..." Kris mouths into Adam's skin.

He tightens his grip on Adam's cock and increases the pace of his strokes...

"I want to fuck you forever!"

"Oh God Kris...oh God...I'm coming!"

Adam feels the white, hot burn flow through his body...he feels Kris' cock inside him and Kris' hand stroking his cock, faster and faster and...he can't stand it any longer...it's coming faster and faster...he knows they're too loud...he doesn't care!!!

"Kris...baby...yes fuck me...suck me...love me! Oh my Goddddd Kris!"

"Come for me baby...yes...oh fuck yes Adam come for me!"

"Ohhhh fuck Kris...yessssss!!"

Adam's body tenses as he explodes in Kris' hand. He sees nothing but a kaleidoscope of colors as his body rides a tidal wave of pleasure, fireworks going off in his brain....a loud groan builds in his throat and forces itself out of his wide open mouth...

"Oh yes baby" Kris says softly, still slowly fucking Adam as he continues to stroke every last bit of cum from him.

"Ohhh Godddd" Adam sighs as he melts down into the pillow..."Ohhh Godddd Kris".

"Oh fuck yes Adam I love to make you come."

Kris gently nudges Adam to slide his knees up underneath him...legs spread wide...Kris takes a firm grasp of Adam's shoulders and drives his cock even farther inside...his thrusts are short but hard, he barely pulls out at all as he continues to grind deeper into Adam...

"Ohhhh fuck yes, Adam...yes, yes...you feel so damn good!"

Adam feels sweat drip onto his back, he feels Kris' strong hands squeezing his shoulders, he feels every rock hard muscle in Kris' body grinding up against him!

"Oh Adam...oh fuckkkkk!" Kris' voice is deep and desperate and rough.

Kris' hands dig deeper into Adam's shoulders as he pulls out and thrusts one last time...hard and deep inside Adam...

"Oh Goddd...Kris!"

Kris thrusts harder and harder, not pulling out at all, his pelvis glued to Adam, his cock digging deeper and deeper inside...Kris groans with each thrust...

"Oh hell Kris...Oh my God!" Adam feels something stirring deep inside him...it's a feeling he's never felt before...

"Kris...Kris...OH MY GOD!!"

Adam feels it building and building as Kris' cock digs deeper and deeper inside him..

"Adam...oh baby...Adam...oh fuck yes...baby...I'm coming...baby...yes!!!"

"Kris...OH MY GOD!!! Kris...what's happening??"

"OHHHH FUCKKKKKKK..."

As Kris explodes inside Adam...Adam feels an internal orgasm that swirls deep inside of him, welling up and exploding out of his cock...it rocks his body in multiple quakes!

"OHHH MY GODDDD!! WHAT THE FUCK?" Adam screams as Kris continues to throb inside him...

"Adam baby...oh yessssss..yes...yes"

They remain locked together Kris collapsed on top of Adam, for several minutes, panting and shuddering as their simultaneous orgasms finally calm and then subside.

Finally Kris rouses and slowly and carefully pulls out of Adam and without a word goes into the bathroom and closes the door.

Adam slowly stretches his body out and although the endorphins are still flowing he's vaguely aware of soreness in more spots than one. He rolls over and lies on his back, clasping his hands behind his head on the pillow.

"Wow" he says out loud to himself.

Kris returns with a warm washcloth and kneels down on his knees facing Adam.

"Are you OK?" he asks quietly as he begins to wash Adam off, taking care to be gentle.

"Of course I'm OK. Are you?"

"Ummm...yes I'm more than OK Adam...I just...did I hurt you? I don't know what came over me."

"No, you didn't hurt me. But ask me tomorrow."

Kris' face looks both scared and hurt.

"I'm kidding Kris!" Adam smiles and winks at Kris.

"You were amazing...incredible...I don't even have words! You are so passionate and intense...and HOW did you learn to do those things so well?"

"Adam, YOU are what brings that out in me...I've never been like that...ever with anyone else! I don't even know how I knew...it just came naturally, it felt so natural and so damn right...with you...it's all for you Adam."

Kris lies down and Adam wraps an arm around him, Kris snuggles up into Adam's underarm.

"I can't believe this is the last night...I can't believe the tour is over."

"Well let's not be sad. We both have bigger and better things to come."

"Adam..." Kris whispers into Adam's chest.

"Yes baby" Adam says as he strokes Kris' hair.

"Adam...I....I love you."

"I love you too Kristopher...I will always love you" Adam closes his eyes squeezes Kris tightly and kisses his hair knowing now, more than ever, that he most definitely would.

Kris returns to the party and Adam makes an appearance later. They mingle and celebrate stealing cautious glances at each other from time to time. Exhausted and spent Adam thanks everyone, excuses himself from the party and takes a cab to the hotel.

Once in his hotel room, Adam removes his clothes and goes into the bathroom. He stands in front of the mirror looking through his own reflection, thinking only of Kris and their time together. He speaks directly to himself pointing an accusing finger "What the hell are you doing? What the hell have you done?"

Adam notices the bruises beginning to appear on his shoulders and his hips. "Mmmmm...Kris...baby" he smiles at himself in the mirror and says "You're in big trouble Mr.....you're in over your head this time!"

Adam climbs into the shower. The hot water feels good on his achy body and eases the pounding in his temples. But his mind continues to relive every moment as his hands move over his body. He gets out of the shower, dries off and towel dries his hair. He puts on a pair of shorts and climbs into the bed.

Feeling both happy and confused he picks up his phone and checks the time. "3:00 am...but it's the shank of the evening in L.A." Adam sighs heavily as he dials Drake's number.

to be continued...